In this memoir, Valérie Forgues meticulously examines non-maternity and termination of pregnancy. An archaeologist of the intimate and a committed reader, she delves into the words of other women (Annie Ernaux, Colombe Schneck, Sheila Heti, Lucie Joubert, etc.), as well as into her own memories, to sensitively map the shocks, ruptures, wanderings and courage involved in the decision not to be a mother. The author names the pain and guilt, but also the undeniable thirst for freedom which, thanks to this sincere and restorative writing, is also a way of choosing love.